I am sitting here writing this on my phone before emailing it to myself to copy into a blog post. I know it is probably a long winded way of doing it but it is how I do things and also it is because Ava is napping which means quality time with Esme, she is asleep on me and it is one of the best things ever.
I thought before I wrote about Esme at two months I would just write a little about how I am feeling too rather than having a separate post partum post because, to be honest, I am lucky to get one post up with a photo never mind two.
At the moment I am feeling quite guilty. Guilty that I am not paying Esme as much attention as I would like as I have a little whirling dervish, also known as Ava, always around taking most of my attention.
When Ava was this little I spent hours cuddling her or just watching her. Taking it all in and taking a million photos to capture every new thing, but this time if I take a photo every couple of days I think that is a success. All the little things seem to blur into one and I am not really giving them the time they deserve. Esme is cooing: it might be the cutest thing ever.
I just feel guilty that I am not giving her the same time that I gave Ava and I know that is because being a mother of two is totally different to just having your first but I just don't want it to be. But being realistic it will be and I can't help that.
What I like to think though is that she Esme knows she is loved, and she is lucky because she has one more person than Ava had, that adores her and loves her as much as Jonny and I do. So Esme is one lucky girl.
And now time for the two month update:
Esme is smiling and my those smiles. They are just adorable and worth the wait. I had forgotten how precious those gummy smiles are.
Esme is also cooing and is way more vocal. Our house is a mad house especially when Ava is running around dancing and singing let it go at the top of her lungs and now Esme is joining in too. I just love hearing her little voice and Ava's reaction is adorable as she goes over and has a conversation with her.
Esme is more alert and awake and you can see her just taking it all in.
Last week Esme had her first set of injections. The injections are the only thing I really am not the biggest fan of. I know she needs them and would never not give them her, but that cry when it goes in, well it just breaks my heart.
Esme has outgrown all of her newborn clothes. This makes me so sad my baby is not a newborn anymore.
Esme has really good neck control even the doctor commented on it.
Esme is still sleeping well and is just generally really relaxed and chilled out. Although she does have her moments occasionally I can tell you.
We love you Esme and are so proud of you.